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Rachel's Portfolio
Part I
Behavior Modification
The Problem: I have a huge issue with working out. I am really good about making a weekly and monthly schedule and usually following it, but when it comes to working out that is something that I can never stick to. At first I just thought that it was laziness however I don't have a problem with doing any other type of activities. Whenever I make a schedule for the week I can almost 90% of the time follow it completely. My goal is to be able to schedule in 4-5 times a week to work out in my schedule and follow those set times at least 75% for that week. For example if I plan to work out 4 times in one week I want to at least work out 3 of those 4 planned times. The Goal: My goal for this plan is to modify my behavior of not working out to being able to schedule set times in a week to work out and actually stay firm in those scheduled times. I am going to schedule 4-5 times a week to work out and every time that I do work out I will be able to put a star on a sheet of paper and for every ten stars that I have on the sheet I will be able to buy a new movie. By rewarding myself with a new movie I will be using positive reinforcement.
Self-Efficacy
High Self-Efficacy: One area in my life where I have high self-efficacy is that I will be able to pass all my classes and graduate from college with two degrees. Receiving a college degree is a huge influence of mine. My whole family has at least two degrees and therefore being able to receive my first degree is a very important to me. I have always done well in Business classes and therefore I know that I will be able to finish strong with that degree, no problem. I am new to the Psychology department this year but I have been doing well so far so I don't think I will have any huge boundaries standing in my way. I did not do fantastic in high school but I did not do extremely bad either. I was an okay student and since I was able to make it out of high school that gives me a huge influence to make it out of college.
Low Self-Efficacy: One area in my life where I have low self-efficacy is finishing my homework for religion class. I have always gone to a Christian school and therefore I have always been in religion classes and have not had a problem with it until this year. Last semester I just barely scrapped by in my religion class because I did not always finish my homework which mostly consisted of readings. When it comes to Psychology I can always get into my readings, at least most of the time, however when it comes to religion, something I have no interest in at all, it is hard to get into any of the readings.
One thing that I have decided to do to help my low self-efficacy is to start scheduling out 15-20 minute time periods in order to do my readings. I have decided on 15-20 minutes because that way I can read a little bit, process it, do something else for a little bit and then come back and do that pattern repeatedly until my readings are finished. I also plan to do this scheduling over a few days therefore I don't try and cram it all in in one day. If I am able to only schedule 15-20 minutes at a time and start there I am hoping to be able to at some point finish all my reading in one sitting.
Positive Psychology
Personality Portfolio 2
Trends In Neuroticism
Moving toward people:
I have always been the "baby" of the family and in all honesty I have loved it. When I was younger I was always the cute adorable one who got away with anything and who had all the attention I needed from my parents as well as there friends. When I was nine years old my mother was diagnosed with a Brain Tumor and given six months to live. Being nine, I obviously had no idea what was happening in our family and I could not understand where all the attention had gone. I remember being taken from one place to another while my mom was in the hospital and I remember almost feeling as though I was just being moved along to be put out of the way. It was then that I started to strive for any attention that I could get, good or bad. I never took school seriously and I always really hated it so I remember thinking well maybe I can start doing well and I did. I became the head math person at my school, but little praise was given and even though now I know that it was because so much else was going on in my parents world at the time I felt as though no one cared. School obviously was not getting there attention so I decided to try and get their attention in other ways. I remember when I was still in Elementary school I was once pushed off the swings, everyone came to make sure I was okay and I was sent home to be with my mom and I remember having all the attention I needed. Soon that attention went away and I decided one afternoon to make myself hurt by falling off the monkey bars just so I could get the attention I wanted. Because when I was hurt it was always an "accident" the attention was never negative and always very positive towards me. Soon I grew older and needed to strive for attention in other ways. I didn't know what else to do to make them proud so I started to strive for negative attention. I began to drink in high school and engage in "dangerous" behavior. Even though my parents weren't giving me positive attention, they were giving me negative attention, which all in all to me it was attention and I craved any type of it. By mid- high school I was sick of being yelled at and so I decided to crave for positive attention. I began to get very involved at church and there all the positive attention came!!! The more involved I was at church the more recognition I received from my parents. I loved church and I loved what attention it brought to me but I suddenly realized that I wasn't doing it for the good of people but for the good of myself. I decided to leave church for a few years and just do what i wanted to do. I ended up putting a lot of the energy that i had put into church into helping friends who needed help and it was then that I realized that yes I loved the attention that I received from my parents whenever I was involved at church but I also really enjoyed helping people through my church and it was not all about attention but making myself happy. I now realize that every time that I am not involved in some type of church thing that I find myself board with myself and seeking attention, good or bad.
Moving Against People:
In high school, I began to move against people through my achievements through the church. I felt as though that I needed to always be the one in charge and planning everything that was done to help people through out youth group. I also felt that no one could do as good of job as could because of all the praise I was given whenever I could plan a charity event. I always needed and wanted control of every event and activity that was going on because I felt as though things would be messed up and not end up going well unless I knew everything that was going on and I could have full reigns on it all. I would never tell people that what they were doing wasn't being done well but I would constantly think in my mind how they could be doing it better.
Moving Away From People:
I have always been a perfectionist and a control freak. If things were not perfect or I was not in control on how they could become perfect I would feel as though nothing was working out for me and that everything was going to or already was falling apart. This started to really come to form in my relationships with other people. If I was not loved by everyone I would feel as though something was not perfect that I would obsess about "fixing" the imperfection. I would also have "freak out" moments if for some reason one of my friends was mad and me and I could not control how they were feeling at the time. This ended up being one of the "complications" in a lot of my relationships with other people. My constant obsession and need for things to be perfect can be very over-whelming to people at times and no one really needs everything to be perfect all the time, and that is something I am slowly learning.
Most frequent area:
I would have to say that the area Horney’s trends of neuroticism that I most frequently come in contact with is moving toward others. I constantly look for praise and affection from others and if I do not have that praise I become fearful that something is wrong. I have always put others in front of myself and instead of working towards better grades and a healthier self I will make sure that everyone else is okay and my relationships with them are "perfect". I am someone who does not like conflict so I will put my personal needs aside to make everyone else happy which makes it pretty hard to please myself when I am constantly pleasing others.
Sources of Identity
Occupation: I am currently a students right now in order to learn more about the fields that I am considering going into. I have never done well at school therefore I have never really enjoyed being at school or going to classes. I am now trying to look at other options for my schooling so I can find ways to succeed and be happy with what I am doing. I love to work and I consider that to be my most stable occupation but I also want to achieve and possess the best job that I can, which would mean being able to obtain my degree in that area.
Gender: I am obviously a female and I love being one. However I do believe that being a female holds me back from certain aspects. Because females have "way more" hormones than males it is hard to be emotionally stable all of the time and therefore hard to guess certain outcomes of situations.
Ethnic group: I am a white female and therefore I am looked at for being upper middle class with all that I want. It is hard to be a known as upper middle class because those in upper middle class have seen as people who don't have any problems and that basically money can solve everything, which believe me in never the case.
Characteristics of Healthy People
Interpersonal relationships are the most common characteristic in healthy people as far as I am concerned. Those who have achieved Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs have a true healthy self being. Although it is known that no one person can stay at the top of the hierarchy forever someone who goes throughout the hierarchy has a true knowledge of self- being.
Personality Portfolio 3
Defense Mechanisms
Nine months ago my mother died. She had been sick for 13 1/2 years with a brain tumor therefore many people figured that I had had many years to prepare for her death, even I thought that way as well. In January of 2009 she was put on Hospice and given six months to live. It was then that instead of grieving for my mother and dealing with the fact that she was about to leave my world forever I turned into a person who needed to make sure everything around myself was okay. I wouldn't let anyone help me grieve and I wouldn't talk to anyone about how I was feeling. I cried, but never in front of anyone and it was very rare. On the day of her death I was two hours away from home and got a call from my dad telling me I needed to come immediately. Even though he didn't tell me that my mother had died I knew what had happened and as I drove those hundred miles all I thought about was what was I going to do with school, what arrangements needed to be made and how I was going to take care of my family. I didn't cry and I didn't want to think about the fact that my mother was in my living room at that moment lying in her hospital bed and never going to wake up again. When I got home I realized that I was running to my front door which i never did. My Dad opened the door and told me that my mother had died. Actually hearing the words hit me and I dropped everything in my hands and sobbed. It was the first time I had let myself go like that in 13 1/2 years. It wasn't until later in the summer that I realized everything that I have done regarding my mothers illness has been a defense mechanism. Every situation that I have blown out of proportion and every dramatic relationship that I have had was all a distraction from realizing my mother was dying. I have always been a "dramatic" person and never really understood why because I truly hate conflict. Once my mother had passed away I realized that it was all just a game for me because I needed something to do instead of dealing with my true problems. I created problems for myself so I wouldn't have to manage what was actually going on in my life.
Part 2:
Jung’s Typology Test
ESFJ
It's funny because when I looked at what an ESFJ was I thought, "oh my gosh, that is me!.... I'm glad I'm not the only crazy one." An ESFJ is known as the "caregiver" and strives to please people. When I looked up what careers would be good for me this was the list that came up;
Part 3:
Adler: Early Recollections
1. One of the first memories that I can remember is when I found my mother face down on her bathroom floor after her first seizure. I was nine and at home because we did not have school that day. We had just got to the store because there was an outbreak of lice at my elementary school and every child had to use the special lice shampoo. My mother had put the shampoo in my hair and we had to let it sit. I went out into the living room to watch my all time favorite show at the time, Matlock, and a few minutes later I heard banging coming from the bathroom. I yelled for my mom but I didn't get an answer. I can remember thinking, "oh no she got some of the lice shampoo in her eye!!!" which at the time was the worst thing that could happen, I now laugh about that every time I think about it. I tried to get into the bathroom but the door was being blocked by my mothers body. As a nine year old I had no idea what was going on so I went to the phone and dialed 911. While I was on the phone with the operator my mother came out of the bathroom and asked what I was doing. I told her that I was on the phone with 911, the took the phone and said "I'm so sorry, I must have fallen, I am fine." They sent firemen and an ambulance anyway. I remember standing in the kitchen as they hooked her up to machines and as the firemen put away groceries that my mother had not gotten to yet.
2. When I was trying to think of memories of when I was younger all that I could think about were memories of me and my mom after she was diagnosed with a brain tumor. I tried very hard to think of something else but it was those memories that I have held on to forever and will probably never forget.
Behavior Modification
The Problem: I have a huge issue with working out. I am really good about making a weekly and monthly schedule and usually following it, but when it comes to working out that is something that I can never stick to. At first I just thought that it was laziness however I don't have a problem with doing any other type of activities. Whenever I make a schedule for the week I can almost 90% of the time follow it completely. My goal is to be able to schedule in 4-5 times a week to work out in my schedule and follow those set times at least 75% for that week. For example if I plan to work out 4 times in one week I want to at least work out 3 of those 4 planned times. The Goal: My goal for this plan is to modify my behavior of not working out to being able to schedule set times in a week to work out and actually stay firm in those scheduled times. I am going to schedule 4-5 times a week to work out and every time that I do work out I will be able to put a star on a sheet of paper and for every ten stars that I have on the sheet I will be able to buy a new movie. By rewarding myself with a new movie I will be using positive reinforcement.
Self-Efficacy
High Self-Efficacy: One area in my life where I have high self-efficacy is that I will be able to pass all my classes and graduate from college with two degrees. Receiving a college degree is a huge influence of mine. My whole family has at least two degrees and therefore being able to receive my first degree is a very important to me. I have always done well in Business classes and therefore I know that I will be able to finish strong with that degree, no problem. I am new to the Psychology department this year but I have been doing well so far so I don't think I will have any huge boundaries standing in my way. I did not do fantastic in high school but I did not do extremely bad either. I was an okay student and since I was able to make it out of high school that gives me a huge influence to make it out of college.
Low Self-Efficacy: One area in my life where I have low self-efficacy is finishing my homework for religion class. I have always gone to a Christian school and therefore I have always been in religion classes and have not had a problem with it until this year. Last semester I just barely scrapped by in my religion class because I did not always finish my homework which mostly consisted of readings. When it comes to Psychology I can always get into my readings, at least most of the time, however when it comes to religion, something I have no interest in at all, it is hard to get into any of the readings.
One thing that I have decided to do to help my low self-efficacy is to start scheduling out 15-20 minute time periods in order to do my readings. I have decided on 15-20 minutes because that way I can read a little bit, process it, do something else for a little bit and then come back and do that pattern repeatedly until my readings are finished. I also plan to do this scheduling over a few days therefore I don't try and cram it all in in one day. If I am able to only schedule 15-20 minutes at a time and start there I am hoping to be able to at some point finish all my reading in one sitting.
Positive Psychology
Personality Portfolio 2
Trends In Neuroticism
Moving toward people:
I have always been the "baby" of the family and in all honesty I have loved it. When I was younger I was always the cute adorable one who got away with anything and who had all the attention I needed from my parents as well as there friends. When I was nine years old my mother was diagnosed with a Brain Tumor and given six months to live. Being nine, I obviously had no idea what was happening in our family and I could not understand where all the attention had gone. I remember being taken from one place to another while my mom was in the hospital and I remember almost feeling as though I was just being moved along to be put out of the way. It was then that I started to strive for any attention that I could get, good or bad. I never took school seriously and I always really hated it so I remember thinking well maybe I can start doing well and I did. I became the head math person at my school, but little praise was given and even though now I know that it was because so much else was going on in my parents world at the time I felt as though no one cared. School obviously was not getting there attention so I decided to try and get their attention in other ways. I remember when I was still in Elementary school I was once pushed off the swings, everyone came to make sure I was okay and I was sent home to be with my mom and I remember having all the attention I needed. Soon that attention went away and I decided one afternoon to make myself hurt by falling off the monkey bars just so I could get the attention I wanted. Because when I was hurt it was always an "accident" the attention was never negative and always very positive towards me. Soon I grew older and needed to strive for attention in other ways. I didn't know what else to do to make them proud so I started to strive for negative attention. I began to drink in high school and engage in "dangerous" behavior. Even though my parents weren't giving me positive attention, they were giving me negative attention, which all in all to me it was attention and I craved any type of it. By mid- high school I was sick of being yelled at and so I decided to crave for positive attention. I began to get very involved at church and there all the positive attention came!!! The more involved I was at church the more recognition I received from my parents. I loved church and I loved what attention it brought to me but I suddenly realized that I wasn't doing it for the good of people but for the good of myself. I decided to leave church for a few years and just do what i wanted to do. I ended up putting a lot of the energy that i had put into church into helping friends who needed help and it was then that I realized that yes I loved the attention that I received from my parents whenever I was involved at church but I also really enjoyed helping people through my church and it was not all about attention but making myself happy. I now realize that every time that I am not involved in some type of church thing that I find myself board with myself and seeking attention, good or bad.
Moving Against People:
In high school, I began to move against people through my achievements through the church. I felt as though that I needed to always be the one in charge and planning everything that was done to help people through out youth group. I also felt that no one could do as good of job as could because of all the praise I was given whenever I could plan a charity event. I always needed and wanted control of every event and activity that was going on because I felt as though things would be messed up and not end up going well unless I knew everything that was going on and I could have full reigns on it all. I would never tell people that what they were doing wasn't being done well but I would constantly think in my mind how they could be doing it better.
Moving Away From People:
I have always been a perfectionist and a control freak. If things were not perfect or I was not in control on how they could become perfect I would feel as though nothing was working out for me and that everything was going to or already was falling apart. This started to really come to form in my relationships with other people. If I was not loved by everyone I would feel as though something was not perfect that I would obsess about "fixing" the imperfection. I would also have "freak out" moments if for some reason one of my friends was mad and me and I could not control how they were feeling at the time. This ended up being one of the "complications" in a lot of my relationships with other people. My constant obsession and need for things to be perfect can be very over-whelming to people at times and no one really needs everything to be perfect all the time, and that is something I am slowly learning.
Most frequent area:
I would have to say that the area Horney’s trends of neuroticism that I most frequently come in contact with is moving toward others. I constantly look for praise and affection from others and if I do not have that praise I become fearful that something is wrong. I have always put others in front of myself and instead of working towards better grades and a healthier self I will make sure that everyone else is okay and my relationships with them are "perfect". I am someone who does not like conflict so I will put my personal needs aside to make everyone else happy which makes it pretty hard to please myself when I am constantly pleasing others.
Sources of Identity
Occupation: I am currently a students right now in order to learn more about the fields that I am considering going into. I have never done well at school therefore I have never really enjoyed being at school or going to classes. I am now trying to look at other options for my schooling so I can find ways to succeed and be happy with what I am doing. I love to work and I consider that to be my most stable occupation but I also want to achieve and possess the best job that I can, which would mean being able to obtain my degree in that area.
Gender: I am obviously a female and I love being one. However I do believe that being a female holds me back from certain aspects. Because females have "way more" hormones than males it is hard to be emotionally stable all of the time and therefore hard to guess certain outcomes of situations.
Ethnic group: I am a white female and therefore I am looked at for being upper middle class with all that I want. It is hard to be a known as upper middle class because those in upper middle class have seen as people who don't have any problems and that basically money can solve everything, which believe me in never the case.
Characteristics of Healthy People
Interpersonal relationships are the most common characteristic in healthy people as far as I am concerned. Those who have achieved Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs have a true healthy self being. Although it is known that no one person can stay at the top of the hierarchy forever someone who goes throughout the hierarchy has a true knowledge of self- being.
Personality Portfolio 3
Defense Mechanisms
Nine months ago my mother died. She had been sick for 13 1/2 years with a brain tumor therefore many people figured that I had had many years to prepare for her death, even I thought that way as well. In January of 2009 she was put on Hospice and given six months to live. It was then that instead of grieving for my mother and dealing with the fact that she was about to leave my world forever I turned into a person who needed to make sure everything around myself was okay. I wouldn't let anyone help me grieve and I wouldn't talk to anyone about how I was feeling. I cried, but never in front of anyone and it was very rare. On the day of her death I was two hours away from home and got a call from my dad telling me I needed to come immediately. Even though he didn't tell me that my mother had died I knew what had happened and as I drove those hundred miles all I thought about was what was I going to do with school, what arrangements needed to be made and how I was going to take care of my family. I didn't cry and I didn't want to think about the fact that my mother was in my living room at that moment lying in her hospital bed and never going to wake up again. When I got home I realized that I was running to my front door which i never did. My Dad opened the door and told me that my mother had died. Actually hearing the words hit me and I dropped everything in my hands and sobbed. It was the first time I had let myself go like that in 13 1/2 years. It wasn't until later in the summer that I realized everything that I have done regarding my mothers illness has been a defense mechanism. Every situation that I have blown out of proportion and every dramatic relationship that I have had was all a distraction from realizing my mother was dying. I have always been a "dramatic" person and never really understood why because I truly hate conflict. Once my mother had passed away I realized that it was all just a game for me because I needed something to do instead of dealing with my true problems. I created problems for myself so I wouldn't have to manage what was actually going on in my life.
Part 2:
Jung’s Typology Test
ESFJ
It's funny because when I looked at what an ESFJ was I thought, "oh my gosh, that is me!.... I'm glad I'm not the only crazy one." An ESFJ is known as the "caregiver" and strives to please people. When I looked up what careers would be good for me this was the list that came up;
- Home Economics
- Nursing
- Teaching
- Administrators
- Child Care
- Family Practice Physician
- Clergy or other religious work
- Office Managers
- Counselors / Social Work
- Bookkeeping / Accounting
- Administrative Assistants
Part 3:
Adler: Early Recollections
1. One of the first memories that I can remember is when I found my mother face down on her bathroom floor after her first seizure. I was nine and at home because we did not have school that day. We had just got to the store because there was an outbreak of lice at my elementary school and every child had to use the special lice shampoo. My mother had put the shampoo in my hair and we had to let it sit. I went out into the living room to watch my all time favorite show at the time, Matlock, and a few minutes later I heard banging coming from the bathroom. I yelled for my mom but I didn't get an answer. I can remember thinking, "oh no she got some of the lice shampoo in her eye!!!" which at the time was the worst thing that could happen, I now laugh about that every time I think about it. I tried to get into the bathroom but the door was being blocked by my mothers body. As a nine year old I had no idea what was going on so I went to the phone and dialed 911. While I was on the phone with the operator my mother came out of the bathroom and asked what I was doing. I told her that I was on the phone with 911, the took the phone and said "I'm so sorry, I must have fallen, I am fine." They sent firemen and an ambulance anyway. I remember standing in the kitchen as they hooked her up to machines and as the firemen put away groceries that my mother had not gotten to yet.
2. When I was trying to think of memories of when I was younger all that I could think about were memories of me and my mom after she was diagnosed with a brain tumor. I tried very hard to think of something else but it was those memories that I have held on to forever and will probably never forget.
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Your ways to improve your self-efficacy may be more appropriate for the behavior modification. Self-efficacy should be a bit more general about you. For me, I have low self-efficacy about being a capable non-neurotic mom. Yes, I can just start having babies, but changing the behavior doesn't change the internal belief. To change that, I need to use different cognitive skills, like examining past behaviors, to change this belief.
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| betsi.little | Behavior Modification | 0 | Feb 27 2009, 7:16 PM EST by betsi.little | ||
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Since you don't seem to have problems with other planned activities, maybe it IS the exercise. I am not sure that this strategy will work. What happens is you don't go but you find a movie you really want? What if you get your 10 stickers, but don't have cash or time to buy the movie right away.
Perhaps you can look to your friends for more help. Find a work-out buddy who reinforced every time you go. You can work out together and have some fun! And for his or her help, you can treat you both to a smoothie at the end of each week. Just an idea. |
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